A Kirkus Reviews Best Book of the Year: This memoir “examines love, grief, family and personhood with clear eyes and an open heart” (Emma Straub, New York Times–bestselling author of Modern Lovers).
At twenty-eight, Mira Ptacin discovered she was pregnant. Though it was unplanned, she embraced the idea of starting a family and became engaged to Andrew, the father. But five months later, an ultrasound revealed that her child would be born with a constellation of birth defects and no chance of survival outside the womb. Mira was given three options: terminate the pregnancy, induce early delivery, or wait and inevitably miscarry.
In this “rich and vivid” memoir, Mira’s story is paired with that of her mother, who emigrated from Poland to the United States, and who also experienced grievous loss when her only son was killed by a drunk driver (Lily King). These deftly interwoven stories offer a picture of mother and daughter finding strength in themselves and each other in the face of tragedy.
Mira Ptacin’s work has appeared in Guernica, NPR, New York magazine, McSweeney’s Internet Tendency, The National Book Foundation, The Morning News, Tin House, The Rumpus, and more. She teaches memoir writing to women at the Maine Correctional Center and lives on Peaks Island, Maine, with her husband, Andrew; son, Theo; daughter, Simone; and their two dogs, Huckleberry and Maybe.